Thursday, April 08, 2010

Feeling stuck

I've been reading books on Wicca and practicing on and off for about 12 years. I grew up in a strict Catholic home and felt forced to believe things that didn't feel right to me. I started reading up on other religions to find what fit best with the belief I had in my heart. Many pagan religions struck a cord with me and led me to Wicca. Through college and married life I have been studying on and off. I have had to remain in the closet since I started my journey and I feel like it has hindered me because I could never seem to find enough time to myself to focus on my reading. Thankfully my Husband knows and is open to it, but we are always on the go.

Today, I'm a stay at home mom with two kids and I watch my niece 3 days a week. I have been on "break" from practicing because of this for 3 years and now feel the need to get back to it. But I feel stuck. I can't practice the way I use to because of limited time (kids and family obligations). I try to reconnect and I hit a wall, I have all these ideas in my head that I can't seem to do. I'm second guessing myself and drawing blanks when I try to journal or can't focus when I try to meditate. I have thought that maybe I'm too wrapped up in my kids, keeping the house up, and family obligations to rekindle my spirituality. I'm a little frustrated at myself for not "just making the time," but as any mom knows, time for yourself is few and far between most days.

Has anyone else had similar experiences? How did you get unstuck? What type of simple rituals do you do? How do you balance family and faith? I would like to at least do a ritual on the Sabbats but need some very simple ones that don't take much time. any suggestions?

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